Sometimes in life, you just have to close the door and leave all the MADNESS of the world OUTSIDE. That’s the case with me right now. As you may or may not know, we are currently going through another Mercury Retrograde cycle that started on the 21st, so therefore things seem to be slowing down, going wrong, and driving us all crazy!
Well for me…YES, this definitely is the case! Even though there was also a beautiful NEW MOON that just passed on the 20th, I can still feel the effects of Mercury Retrograde FULL-BLAST! The crazy thing is, I was preparing for it! I was even pointing the approaching retrograde out to people (who are into Astrology, that is) and it STILL snuck up on me–within HOURS of Mercury going retrograde! It was insane! I can’t believe that after all the preparing and bracing myself…I STILL fell into the trap of the miscommunication, the feeling the need to snatch people’s faces and whatnot! 😮
Well, with all that being said…I just want to quietly reflect right here on the wonderful day I’ve had and just tell you how I’m going about pulling myself out of the NEGATIVE influence of this Mercury Retrograde (because if you read the Mercury Retrograde article I linked above, you’ll also see that there’s a POSITIVE side to it).
For the past few days, I’ve been taking the time to regroup, refocus, and become more careful and aware of myself…both in general AND as an Artist. ❤ My sisters, my King, and my Elders have been helping my get through this strange time, too.
So let me tell you about TODAY! When I checked my email on my phone, I saw that there was one from my beloved ReelBlack inviting me to a poetry event at the Philadelphia Museum of Art at 6:30 p.m.! Not only that, but on Wednesdays, the Museum lets you “Pay What You Wish” starting at 5 p.m.! So I jumped right on up, showered, dressed and relaxed until it was time to go. I hopped on the bus and got there seven minutes to 5. I got there early because I wanted to see the current African-American art exhibit that opened recently called Represent: 200 Years of African-American Art. I actually wrote about this and other art exhibits I want to see yesterday on Ataensic Media! ❤
It was AMAZING! It was an honor to be able to see all of this POWERFUL artwork by MY PEOPLE preserved in time safely behind glass, framed, and other ways. There were quite a few pieces that really captured my Heart, one such piece was by Carrie Mae Weems. Actually, they were three pieces from a well-known series of hers called The Kitchen Table series, shown below. (And yes, that’s her in the photographs).
What pulled at my Heartstrings was the fact that I could feel the mood of each piece–the MESSAGE. It felt so dark, yet so REAL and I could relate. It honestly reminded me of myself and my King, Stanley–even down to the actual poses, facial expressions and gestures. These three simple images reminded me of our relationship at certain places, times and moods, the ups the downs…everything that makes us, US. ❤ ❤ ❤ And it inspired me all the way down to the depths of my Spirit where Soul resides…to cherish my relationship, to cultivate it and protect it by ANY MEANS NECESSARY. YES! I got ALL THAT from just three installments of a series. I’m definitely going to look more into Ms. Weems’ work. You should check her out, too if you haven’t already.
ANYWAY, that’s not it! The poetry event was OFF THE CHAIN! (YES, I had to resurrect that old expression for this event because that’s just what I feel like doing! :D) All the performers shut it DOWNNE tonight! Everyone was beautiful, inspiring and in their element! I was BLOWN AWAY! I had a wonderful time! I was ESPECIALLY feeling the performance of one Ms. Nina Ball, better known by her artist name LYRISPECT, who was also the creator and host of the show. The event was themed, based on four artists who were selected from the Represent exhibit. The museum was on FIYAH with ALL of our Energy! Spirituality, justice (or the lack thereof for people of color–AFRICANS), racial identity, inspiration and upliftment for my people–it was all there! Poetry, music, singing, free-styling, even TAP DANCING! YES! No lie…it was rather scary to those floating awkwardly around the place, lacking melanin and SOUL. *wink, wink* 😀
I just found THAT particular thing to be amusing, but I digress… 😉
This was the first poetry event I’ve attended in a LONG time! I think I already told you how I’ve stepped away from the poetry scene to focus more on my visual art, but TODAY was all in DIVINE ORDER. I KNEW the email caught my eye for a reason. 😉 ❤ So now…I’m finally winding down and getting to the point…
After all that I experienced today…not long ago, I’ve discovered yet another artist right here on my computer through another WordPress blog I read. Her name is damali ayo, and I’m exploring her work, her website, what she’s about, etc. So far, I like what I see. What stood out to me is her statement on her website:
Creating pauses to ponder.
Art is a sensory experience, engaging the impulses but also the mind and most importantly, our emotions. It connects us to our world but most profoundly to ourselves in whatever particular place we currently stand along our journey. I strive to offer a pause inside of which we might be moved through thought and feeling to consider all that is inside us and around us—to ponder our relationships to self, other, world, and back to self. From here we can choose to either affirm or change course.
I’m not interested in making perfect art, or even beautiful art (a notion which is so subjective it doesn’t even really exist). I am interested in art that enters the viewer and our worlds. It is only from that place of intersection with art that we have a meaningful experience.
Art should make you think and feel. It doesn’t have to match your couch.
Reading THAT was actually the catalyst for writing this entry, which brings me back to what I said at the beginning of this entry about closing the door to the madness of the world outside. As I organize myself, make goals and plans to move forward in my art career and in life in general I’ve found myself slowing becoming entangled in what’s going on FAR, FAR outside of myself…even to the point where the reasons why I create art were being forgotten. I found myself falling into the pattern of worrying what other people are doing, what other people will say about my artwork, what the world “expects” of me, current events and its toll on me, history and its toll on me–and on and on and ON. This threatened to strip me of my Peace of Mind. But I CAN’T and WON’T let that happen! So, after having such a wonderful day, filled with encouraging messages and reminders from the Most High in the form of expression through others…the performers at this poetry event, these artists I’ve just discovered…even things I think back on that I’ve already been told my loved ones, including MYSELF!
Here I am. I see, I feel, and know that the world is imbalanced–full of MADNESS, WICKEDNESS, DISTRACTIONS. I am imbalanced in my own ways. So, to save myself and preserve my sanity, I retreat into my Zone, and I close the door on it all. I close the door, I lock it. I sit down with all the wonderful things I’ve received today, and I restore myself be REMEMBERING that each and every thing I do, I do it with a PURPOSE. A Purpose myself AND for my people. I am here for a REASON. I know the reason, I’m on a MISSION, and so now is not the time to get shaky on Faith. Now is NOT the time to let the madness of the world carry me away with it. I must remember…I DON’T have to go with it. So I won’t.
YOU don’t have to go, either.
Just close the door.